Maybe I was being rash when I decided to be "in communicado". I tried to put myself into exile and try, as much as possible to forget the pain building up inside of me. I did all the things possible to forget: work till the wee hours of the morning, go into extreme work-out (which I have partly done), get into sports (which I did, European Football and all after 2 months of badgering from my so-called half-brother, dim-witted (kidding) nephew and close gal pal). I tried to veer away from the world for the while, since this "in pain" bit has gotten me into a bit of binge-eating now and then.
I tried to reel away from society. Convincing myself that true love doesn't have to mean, marrying someone who has status, but marrying someone because you love this person. I once heard from my dim-witted nephew (kidding and you might kill me later on!), in the most exasperating voice ever: "Auntie, you don't have to shield yourself from the world, someone out there is willing to catch you, and when that time comes, let that person catch you. We're here. We're willing to catch you no matter how hard the fall might be!" And for someone who happens to be a real dork, he did make a lot of sense. Then entering the fact, that a lot of guys are vying for my utmost attention, I just need to open my eyes.
Maybe I just needed the extra-nudge from this deep sleep of mine. Maybe I just needed someone to let me know that someone still loves me despite of a lot of things. I know I'm not much of looker, but someone will love me despite of the many things I lack. Then one day, Prince Charming will come my way.
I tried to reel away from society. Convincing myself that true love doesn't have to mean, marrying someone who has status, but marrying someone because you love this person. I once heard from my dim-witted nephew (kidding and you might kill me later on!), in the most exasperating voice ever: "Auntie, you don't have to shield yourself from the world, someone out there is willing to catch you, and when that time comes, let that person catch you. We're here. We're willing to catch you no matter how hard the fall might be!" And for someone who happens to be a real dork, he did make a lot of sense. Then entering the fact, that a lot of guys are vying for my utmost attention, I just need to open my eyes.
Maybe I just needed the extra-nudge from this deep sleep of mine. Maybe I just needed someone to let me know that someone still loves me despite of a lot of things. I know I'm not much of looker, but someone will love me despite of the many things I lack. Then one day, Prince Charming will come my way.
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